Ok so my blog has been up for awhile now and personally I’ve been enjoying immensely the time I spend working on it. I still have far more past writings and pictures to get on than I’ve yet been able to do. But I will get there, if it’s the last thing I do. And it just might, lol.
But what I really, REALLY want, more than anything… is for you to tell me what you do like, and also what you find to be a total bore about my site. And don’t be shy, because I see you boys starting to use my comments section now, so I know you’re all finally getting the hang of all this, just like I am. So open up and tell me. Or maybe to make it simpler, you could just tell me what you come to the site to see the most: the xxx previews previews, or the more personal stories, or both equally. You know what? I think I’ll make a poll about this on my Twitter page right now. That should help. Because without the comments I get on here, I really can’t tell if people are enjoying themselves on my blog or not. And that’s one thing I’d really like to know. OK, here I go to post my Twitter poll. Be sure to vote on it, and also just open up anytime you feel like it in my comments section, since I see them all and love to interact with you guys through there. 
P.S. I want to say a HUUUUGE thank you to those of you who chipped in to donate a prop or two from my Amazon wish list to contribute to the fun of my upcoming “Videoboys Porn-o-ween Costume Party”. And yes, that’s what I named it, lol. A year ago with all the troubles I was having emotional and mentally, and being completely isolated from my friends and the public in general for over a year, it’s amazing to me to think that I can actually go so far as to host a party now. It’s a huge step for me and makes me feel very hopeful that things can continue to get better. For those of you who aren’t familiar with the story I’m talking about, don’t worry, I will open up about that soon. But it’s going to take me some time, because it was an extremely difficult time for me and I’m just starting to be able to talk about it openly now. But I will, because I know you’re out there listening to what I say here, and that means the world to me. Thank you for that as well.
October 2nd, 2009 at 4:53 pm
What do I want about your blog?
Well, personally since I think it is YOUR blog, it shouldn’t matter to you what others think about it. But since you asked – lol – I like hearing more about your experiences in the gay porn industry and more about your life (that is if you are willing to of course)
And I can’t help but wish you would post more pics of YOU !!!
You are “still” one incredibly hot guy.
October 3rd, 2009 at 2:58 am
Ian. Just wanted to say that I really enjoy this blog. It’s very brave of you to be so emotionally open. Hats off to you mate!
October 3rd, 2009 at 4:34 am
Hola Chileboy! Thanks so much for that, it means a lot to me. I know some people say it shouldn’t matter to me what others think or enjoy about my site, but it does. Back when I started writing online when I was about 18 years old, the very best part of my day was to wake up and read the messages people had sent me. To know from those messages that something I wrote had a big impact on that person, really motivated me to write more and be very open to talk about things that I thought other people wanted to hear but for some reason had nobody to talk to about it. And I don’t exaggerate at all to say those responses made me feel like my life was very worthwhile. And I truly loved that side of it.
Of course, I would also get the rare lunatic, and still do, but I’ve learned to ignore them. And besides, they just don’t upset me anymore because I know they’re living on another planet. When I was young I was always up for a good fight on the internet, lol. But it gave me so much stress, because I always thought you could reason with a lunatic to make them understand, but it’s not possible. You can never, ever reason with a lunatic, so you’ll just waste your time and drive yourself crazy trying. And when I realized that arguing with a lunatic on the internet is as useful as banging my head on a brick wall for an hour, I realized I need to just show them the door without even saying hello or good-bye. So thanks for not being one of those guys Chileboy, and for instead being one of the people that make me keep writing, I really appreciate it.
Lots of love,
Ian
xoxo
October 3rd, 2009 at 4:58 am
Hey Greg! Oh wait, let me reply to all 3 of your comments at once. You’re such a prolific commentator, that’s awesome.
Well I’m glad you’re old enough to remember fondly back on the live shows of “Montreal Boys Live” back when we were doing that here, but remember that I started all that and I was the first model on there, so I must be even older, lol. But I can live with that. After watching all 14 seasons, all 357 episodes of Dallas (PLUS reunion shows) probably 6 times over, I’ve learned a trick or two from Miss Ellie on smoothing those wrinkles away with a little vaseline on the lens, lol. 
And yeah I really like me new doctor. He’s sort of like a cute young, Woody Allen, with a touch Dorothy Zbornak and Tyra Banks all thrown in together. I found him by accident, and I couldn’t be happier because I was a little worried who’d I’d be with after losing my favourite doctor that I’d been with for over 9 years. But in the end, I lucked out, so all is good.
Hmmm OK, and as for your last message, yeah I can definitely do that. I’ll spill the secrets of working in the porn business, think out loud (or at least on screen) about what’s going in with me personally, and put up whatever pictures and videos I have of my own. That should keep me busy for awhile, lol. Actually I just found a picture of me from 2006, and while it’s not the newest one anymore, I guess I might as well put it up to officially enter into the archives.
Thanks for all your suggestions Greg, and for all your nice words too. I’m just heading to bed, and it’ll definitely help me sleep better tonight.
Ian
xo
October 4th, 2009 at 3:42 am
Hey Ian. Thanks very much for you lovely reply. It is rare to find someone like you who is willing to show themselves.
Exposing one’s emotional side is almost certainly more difficult than getting one’s kit off (especially with a bod like yours!). And it just shows that no matter how physically appealing one might be, one’s soul can be as screwed up and vulnerable, and soaring and happy as the next.
I worked out from my friends a long time ago that it is fine to be messed up. Many of us have histories that have a bearing on who we are now. It’s an ongoing process, part of which is to share stuff with friends or strangers, just to know that we are not totally crazy and that others have had similar experiences, it gives us a sense of belonging in what can be a lonely world.
Keep up the good work Ian, and enjoy your Sunday.
Chileboy (Chris)
October 5th, 2009 at 9:56 pm
Thanks for responding to all my comments, Ian.
Had to laugh about your secrets on how to remove those wrinkles, specially because I just might be a few years older than you.
Although, I do get comments that I look 10 years younger……(they COULD be trying to be nice to me though – lol)
Have to admit though that I really didn’t get into watching “Dallas” that much (sorry – lol)
Anyway, take care and best wishes to ya.
October 6th, 2009 at 1:13 am
He he, well don’t worry, I’m sure that winkled or not, you look lovely just as you are. And your friends seem to agree!
And I know, my love of Dallas is an acquired taste for most people, but we all have our guilty pleasures in life. Did you know I even had the entire real Southfork Ranch rented for my 25th birthday party? And I think I even scared one of the staff with my excessive knowledge of the show, lol. Oh well, it was an amazing night.